One month

Most of the time if I think about not seeing my kids it's measured in hours or days and I miss them intensely while we're apart. Now though, I'm faced with the realization that it's been an entire month.

A month.

How can this be??

One month since I've held his little hand.

Since I've heard his sweet voice and fun little giggle.

One month since I've run my fingers through his thick blonde hair....

I know that there are going to be SO many milestones or 'firsts' down this road, but knowing they are coming doesn't make any of them easier.

We miss you So much Josiah!

Psalm 142:5
I cry to you, O LORD; I say, “You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living.”

Learning

Learning to navigate this huge sea of emotions I have.

Learning that I can have a big ole' huge cry and then get up and be somewhat functional.

Learning that grief is appearing differently in each of the children, each in their own time and all of that is okay.

Learning, learning, learning....I am the student He is the teacher.