Saturday, January 21, 2012

One month


Most of the time if I think about not seeing my kids it's measured in hours or days and I miss them intensely while we're apart. Now though, I'm faced with the realization that it's been an entire month.

A month.

How can this be??

One month since I've held his little hand.

Since I've heard his sweet voice and fun little giggle.

One month since I've run my fingers through his thick blonde hair....



I know that there are going to be SO many milestones or 'firsts' down this road, but knowing they are coming doesn't make any of them easier.


We miss you So much Josiah!


Psalm 142:5
I cry to you, O LORD; I say, “You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living.”

11 comments:

Gayle @ TrainingOlives said...

Oh Laura. How extremely hard... I'm so very sorry. :(

Keri Mae said...

(hugs) :"(

Trudy said...

You and your family are in my prayers. I can only imagine how hard it is for you. :(

Monica said...

Laura, so sorry that you have to endure this separation. You are an amazing mother who knows and loves each of her children as individual gifts from God Himself. You often come to my mind and I pray for you and your family.

Kati Brown said...

Laura, hugs and prayers are sent your way. I miss you all and love you. I wish that peace may come to you and your family. You have not been forgotten, nor has this tradgy. I cry for you and I think of you a lot. I pray and pray that peace would come your way and that in time the pain becomes bearable. I love you lots laura.

Kimmie said...

Oh Laura,

You continue to be in my prayers. I can't imagine your sorrow. May He sustain you, keep you and enable you to trust Him in all things.

Sending our love to you, Ian and the children.

xoxo
Kimmie

Renata said...

Praying for you Laura.
((HUGS))
Renata XO

Leanne said...

Oh Laura.....

My heart brims over for you. There are no words.....

To be truthful, the thought that my babies are in Heaven is no comfort to me because my Human Heart wants them so badly down here, in my arms!! Am I a horrible Christian??? Yikes....I imagine you are having the same feelings, even against our better judgement...

We love you guys and are still praying for you.

Godly-young-widow said...

Wow; I'm glad I came across this now and can remember you in prayer every 21st. It's easy to remember because that's the day of the month that Steven Curtis Chapman tragically lost his daughter. It hurts SO much, and you're being loved and supported through it. Hugs and prayers for you.

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

What a great smile!

(((hugs)))

Marla Grace said...

I have not been blogging much. I stumbled back onto your blog through your comment at pink slippers. I was so so deeply saddened by reading about your loss. As I was reading this I had the stomach bug going through. It made me realize how touch and go life is. I am so so sorry for the loss you, and your beautiful Family are experiencing!!! You seem amazingly strong!!! May God help you through this!! my deepest sympathy and prayers are with you all. Also to your sweet little Man in Heaven! May he shine down on you! Hugs to you!!! Blessings, Marla